In what act or thought of his has there ever been self? What was his aim in life? Greatness - in other people's eyes. Fame, admiration, envy - all which come from others. Others dictated his convictions, which he did not hold, but he was satisfied that other believed he held them. Others were his motive power and his prime concern. He didn't want to be great, but be thought great. He didn't want to build, but to be admired as a builder. He borrowed from other in order to make an impression on others. It's his ego that he's betrayed and given up.